Phew

oh, im in agony. ;v went to meeting for scholarship. well, it always bring me down. always ;v seven is something ey. not to mention three years hahaha. ya Allah. dimana akan kucari ;v hahahaah

how were you to know? you are disgrace all man over the world ! this time I mean it ;v

How were you to know? How were you to know that how we will end up? I been sitting in this chair for very moment staring at the blinking cursor while thinking, typing and erase it again, over and over again.

Hi readers; I been wondering, if you happen to have time machine like Doraemon, what will you do? if it was me, I think I would turn back to time when I was university student. I would ask my past me. Hey! whats makes you able to do this :v I'm so lazy these days. get no desire and passion like I used to. Dull!!!!!! I bet she will says you are need challenges and new adventures ladies ;v I guess I got to save more money and write more journal, gotta follow seminar or conference. Yeah! that is what I need it now ;v

I got weird dream, I guess its all because I watch one piece too much ;v anyhow I felt tired lately and agony as well. because I felt like holiday is just too short. and somehow lot stuff to do. they filled up like mountain. shit happens a lot ey? Depression is a little bit like happy hour, right. It's always gotta be happening somewhere on any given night. - Patrick Stump

-______ I can't believe i spend one month salary for buying book ;v hopefully this all worth it. aamin. I spend my money on the regular miracles just like you, like me, like everybody else ;v   - New politics 

There is once a time when my fellow friend tell me a story about religion stuff and it goes like this (I kinda modified this story for good because it might cause harm to my friend if he happen to read this, right?) A: so our other friend harshly says in group we don't have to say Happy Christmas  with our christian friend and turn out it create chaos since there is christian friend inside the group chat B: well, he didn't done wrong. A: If you were like that, then we got to stop use Instagram, Facebook, Google. They made them anyway B : :v *shoot,.where did I go wrong???* Well reader, says happy Christmas and using stuff that christian made is have no relation, definitely different thing. when we used it, it nothing to do with our Aqidah (Faith). We used it for our business, as long as no related with faith, then its nothing. but. when we says Happy Christmas, though you might thing that talk is cheap, we just say it but we don't do it is totally wrong. wh

shoot. bunch of works already haunt me v;. Something bothering me lot, paper, I try to be paperless but instead, I suppose I'm one of those people who responsible for global warming ==''. now im in the middle of printing ebook, though I got to admit, I try so hard to stop using lot of paper but I just can't help it ;v I hope I could purchase Ipad soon v; aamiin

I been away from home like 2 days. I just notice something that i just need away from crowded. seeking for the inner peace for start my book. instead I go travel with my friend. indeed; i got nothing but painback hahaha well sure fun to have away from duty. but still i go with family of my friend. just to getting used to away with strangers. anywho i think i start to believe the cheerful people inside of me start to fade away. look plastic how i become:v i just cant express my self anymore instead of laughing. laughing in almost circumstances:b