Phew

so reader, could you please teach me, how to be honest person. cause I wonder if I still be honest. In my whole life I keep lying to myself. I cheat on myself countless time. I telling myself that I could do this, I could do that. Till I realize, its like Queen song, No escape from reality. I,, Me,, Myself,, start to lose my confident lately. I try to remind myself the truly I am. I used to be cheerful girl. but look at me now. Working like hell. hell yeah, I forget to how to life. ... I done some civil service today. I realize I'm too tired. I doing some research, doing some university grant, do lecturing and stuff. almost have no time for myself.I even in deathline now for my book. 2 chapter left for it. I almost can't believe that Im still alive in this kind of situation. I stop my car and think. Where will I go after this? I buy 2 cans coffee, drinking while thinking,2 cans of coffee finish I still craving for more coffee, but I realize lot stuff...

Surah Taha, Verse 25-28 قَالَ رَبِّ اشْرَحْ لِي صَدْرِي He said: O my Lord! Expand my breast for me, وَيَسِّرْ لِي أَمْرِي And make my affair easy to me, وَاحْلُلْ عُقْدَةً مِّن لِّسَانِي And loose the knot from my tongue, يَفْقَهُوا قَوْلِي (That) they may understand my word. Beautiful isnt it? Have you ever heard about 9/11 tragedy result? It said after the tragedy lot of people in america convert to islam. Wonder why? I suppose they read quran; Quran is the most beautiful kitab I ever heard and read And also the most reasonable too. There once a time when I involved in class discussion; We discuss about dispute between palestine ans israel. After the class i ask my friend, the one and only christian in class. *im sorry for christian who happen to read this post, no offense to you, im just want to sharing the experience* And the conversation goes like this Me: say A, dispute that happen in palestine was happen among islam people and jews? I...