Phew

Well, im in the middle of marking my students exam. I got like 13 class this semester, I thought gonna be the same like next semester. turns out when I counted 'em it more than 13 class. since 1 class will be divide into 3 so I supposed there are 16 or 17 classes. ;v almost can't breath. I think I understand why I'm getting fat. I forget to thanks to Allah. to busy counting what Allah give. but doesn't thanks Allah for giving me such a bless.  talking about count remind me about number.  We. maybe we are just number in this life. like in our civil card, people give us number to arrange our life.  im little bit dizzy now, because, like every semester I have to give number to a number. you got what I mean? marking the student paper -____ its not easy like the says. because this is bunch of class. I got to read all of it. and worst of all, give them mark. awch. if you were me you will understand why I got dizzy. cause most of stud...

so reader, could you please teach me, how to be honest person. cause I wonder if I still be honest. In my whole life I keep lying to myself. I cheat on myself countless time. I telling myself that I could do this, I could do that. Till I realize, its like Queen song, No escape from reality. I,, Me,, Myself,, start to lose my confident lately. I try to remind myself the truly I am. I used to be cheerful girl. but look at me now. Working like hell. hell yeah, I forget to how to life. ... I done some civil service today. I realize I'm too tired. I doing some research, doing some university grant, do lecturing and stuff. almost have no time for myself.I even in deathline now for my book. 2 chapter left for it. I almost can't believe that Im still alive in this kind of situation. I stop my car and think. Where will I go after this? I buy 2 cans coffee, drinking while thinking,2 cans of coffee finish I still craving for more coffee, but I realize lot stuff...

HEY! im happy to tell you all reader that 1 out of 1000 my works (Im just being hyperbola here) down, 999 to go, LOL. This noon, finally I manage to join lunch with of most (or so called young) fellow lecturer . It was fun, I eat a lot. when I say a lot, I mean it, I really-really eat a lot of food. Eating with no manner (I mean table manner here) is the best thing that I loved the most LOL especially with friends. If you too bother with manner like, most girl have to eat with manner, you will only get suffer, and I didn't subscribe the suffering sir!, no sir, no!. I just love to eat suki and dimsum :) and so after lunch, one of my senior named nurly, I call ém with initial "Yuk na". Long short story I'm having so much fun today, I'm so happy like I'm gonna die ;v I put some video here, thou I'm not speak English here, hopefully reader loves it hahaha.