Phew

Just another scrubby story of my life, got to attend annual meeting in my office,  there are two meeting yesterday and i wasn't mean to get those snack and lunch box (we got snack & lunch box for every meeting). I don't mean to sound like arrogant or proud here; but I don't really fancy those box. The moment I got the box, I give it all away to my students. That day when I reach home, I found my parents friends bought us lot of food; and it didn't stop there, at the night their friends from jakarta comes to visit and give lot of bread and clothes as well. and I was like. what a bless. that is Rezeki right? if it means to you Allah will lead it back to you. I already give away rezeki office yet another comes right away. MasyaAllah.

Hi blog. I know its been a while since my last post. The thing is, im in agony. I feel like I missing some kind of adventures. I just cant wait to travel again. I feel something missing tho im still not sure what is it. Still I have to admit,  got lot stuff to do. Almost have no time to me myself and adventure. Did I miss the old me?

I don't know what is in my head but for no reason I just want to check my facebook email and turn back to that time. And I found out I was wrong. From the start I already know that it wasn't right. I'm pretty sure someone try to hide the fact from me. and I start to think that somebody is me, myself since im the one who know the password. I just don't understand; i feel like i never read this email before but its already mark as read. But for some reason, feel like, I ever read this before. Wonder if I reply the message ? no trace left though. I know past is in the past but meh! whatever.

Job seeker eeeh?? this is the stage when you feel stress, depress, sensitive. You expect to get the job in your area, but most of them looking for the experience one. You expect to get the highest salary, but you just freshman with no experience. You expect people to care, but people to busy with their own business. Down the road, You start to feel people leave you behind. Trust me, I been there before. .... *three or two week ago,   when I knew my father got invitation from UNESCO, I thought maybe this is the chance, to mingle and looking for the network. .... *in the UNESCO field trip Right before my eyes, I saw Gwang-Jo kim, the director UNESCO, Bangkok. the most humble man i ever met, I supposed, so friendly the way he blend with people, when he saw me, he almost sake my hand, I was like, man,,, it was close.   but I have no guts to talk to him or even talk about the job. that is the moment I realize, I got nothing to offer. Abi ha