hard times

I'm staring at my computer now while thinking, what the hecky I'm doing right now. I been test myself through the limit. and this agony feels like asking me, is this all worth it to do?. what do you know about the appreciation?, I start to afraid that this kind of situation will makes me forget the meaning of that word.

I try to recall back what I do in my past, how Past Mia ever passed this kinda hard times.
I pray and cry so hard, then later I remember.
Maybe I just forget how to breath, how to be relax.

For Indeed, with hardship [will be] ease. For truly with hardship comes ease (QS: 94 : 5-6)

and then again I remember now,

Takarabako ni KYOUMI wa nai kedo - One Piece, We are (Original Sountrack)

I'm not interested in treasure anyway. that's the meaning of that lyric.

Bismillah. I can't believe I'm actually forget what col. Hannibal Smith said,

no matter how random things might appear there is still a plan. 

Here we go again :) I hope all of my nakama doing fine out there. Pray for us, Aamin.