Phew

I'm kinda on pinch these days. and im not gonna lie for it. so tired and I dont even have to try-_ in the middle of deadline. okay, I got to be jury on my student event on 3th of October, 6th October the final dateline for University research, if I pass administration test as civil lecturer, I got CAT (Computer Assisted Test) to be done on 11th October and I was wowowowwoowowwowowoow.. okay, and then type this blog. Immmmaaaaaa stresses out but I kind act like I'm not. is it normal? ;v but anyway I listen to my old track again ;v We will not go down (Gaza) by Michael Heart (2009) well, Start to think again, that my problem just like tiny little snowflake that fall from the sky compare to their. like protozoa compare to other people who struggle for their life now, people on streets. ok Mia, stop typing this post and done your homework. yeah, LIKE RIGHT NOW! YEAH IM NOT GONNA DOWN IN THIS MOMENT V; I suppose you too reader, no matter how heavy the burden i

How do you define Edge?? Just like another day, I remember the old song, my song when I try to finish my degree. Closer to the edge by Thirty Seconds to Mars. if you happen to watch video you might thing that I'm sort of like lose my faith, or turn on the radio as the substitute of prayer. No, No, No, No (;v well this is maybe sound like the lyrics of the song). No, I'm not one of them. not even close. sorry to say, The first time I heard that song it was from radio. I like the spirit!, the song was about the lead actor in the song was on the edge. He was fighting over something and he is about to make his life better. This kind of song trigger people in different way, you could check on their video. People translated it to different point of view. Some people just lost in their ways and some of them happen to found the ways. Well then, I tell you what, that is why we born in this world, to fight for it. In Islam We called it Jihad. Jihad is fight against demon

I went to pray tahajud this night; the more I pray the more I know. Allah Almight is Great.

You have a bad day... you sing a sad song, just to turning around.  Well at least that was my favorite song back then when I still doing my bachelor degree. Until I have enough listen to sad songs. Well, I prefer to listen to the sad song when I'm happy and other way around. well sound strange, but it just me ;v so lately, I feel like people no longer talk their feeling inside the chest and mind but they talk about it loud and clear. It feels like the wind eavesdropping their trash talk and send it back to me. Its all echoing in my ear and I can't help it but heard it. for example: two days ago. Well, im in the middle of doing sort of University work and stuff, so I went to nearest mall near University with 3 (three) students of mine. 2 (two) of them is girls, one free hair another wearing hijab and another one is boy. all of them is good looking. If we go around the city I feel like all eyes on us. We can't really help it, they are beautiful creatures ==. anyw

i been wondering why they called it checkmate when the king was closer to the edge. checkmate.... hem. I still figure it out.

you know what??? no, what??? So apparently my father have problem with his ear. well all because he has bad habit; hearing AlQuran while sleep. AlQuran recital on YouTube. I can't help it thou. so sometimes, He does hearing what I am saying. sometimes, He doesn't. same thing happen with my mother. Turns out people near by thinking that I'm maybe playing with my father when the opposite thing happen or maybe apparently I just happen to shout at my father or my mother for that matter. well all because I just to tired to answer Frequently Answers and Questions. but we can't disobey our parent, can we??? I don't know either but, You know that what they say Wood doesn't grow from tree ;v (little rascal, 1994) After all, Allah Almighty is the only one who know that My love for them is from the moon to the back. on the other hand, Now, all people who happens read this Blog know. ;v tehee...

You mean this is it?

I just discover another thing. stop. better stop reminiscing . wake up and make a better change I don't know much about words of wisdom, just happen to heard from any song that playing on radio. after all in 90 era, i loved to listen to the radio, you know what happen in 90'. Walkman was the trend (well I suppose today just the same, they just changed name, Ipod, or whatsoever you know it, people no longer using floopy disk, or even vintage vinyl records for that matter) alhamdulillah, bless to be born in Indonesia. even handmade is working just fine. Nothing wrong with it, listen to any song on radio and it just feel right. You know what, Alhamdulillah, nothing bless me more that got iman in my heart. Faith is everything.I got Islam in my heart and im bullet proof :D Aamiin of course not literally bulletproof (there is no way that I could stand bullet passing through my chest :v)   Remember , if Allah almighty wills, so is so, Kun Fayakun  Anyway I gotta g

Thinking I was born in the wrong time; One of a kind, living in a world gone plastic Baby you're so classic. MKTO,2013

ever heard this hadist before? InsyaAllah, If God wills, I solemnly swear I'm always practice what I'm preaching, now its time for me to reminding myself again, before this cold world turning myself crazy till I scream out bloody murder. I have no capacity to translate this following hadist, I hope you could help yourself with this inconvenience. thank you. Demi Allah, seandainya jenazah yang sedang kalian tangisi bisa berbicara sekejab, lalu menceritakan (pengalaman sakaratul mautnya) pada kaliannya, niscaya kalian akan melupakan jenazah tersebut, dan mulai menangisi diri kalian sendiri"(Imam Al-Ghazali mengutip atsar Al-Hasan)  Source: Valeria Paramita, accessed on 09/09/2017 15:03 GMT +7 from https://www.academia.edu/11874420/ZIKRUL_MAUT

i wonder what the hecky happen in this is world lately? well that beyond me though. like adam from maroon 5 sing. its beyond me; i cant carry the weight of the heavy world. now i give it all back to you Allah. like I always do. people only see but they dont observe so says sherlock holmes. Now i understand why the author name his character that way. its always mean to be lock.. mute.