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It was a disaster, the biggest mistake I ever made.

You know the things about mistake?


most favorite serial all the time. "How I met your mother", about mistake, even though it was a mistake, you gonna make it anyway so says Ted Mosby, the leading actor.

You dont know it was a mistake until you make it. - Ted Mosby

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that night was the time when I think I have enough.

I drift carefully though I almost hit the pedestrian. 

was pinched dark plus the heavy rain. and I start thinking gotta make it home safely.
I don't wanna  make one more trouble.

as i arrived I play it cool. 

my father ask me where have you been?

you went out with your boyfriend?

i was afraid if my father will angry for that.

and i was like,

no, i go out with fellas.,

boyfriend??

we are through. I can't contain myself and crying.

my dad look at me and says, it's okay dear.

he says a lot stuff to comfort me.

Im so dead here, i can't even sleep.

whenever  i go to sleep. the memories haunting me. dayum where did I go wrong?

i look at the photos, I can't believe yesterday was 23 december, ironically 23 september was the time when i decided make commitment with him. hah. seriously i don't mean to put its end like this.

but i can't help it, maybe like another one side love of my life . 

I can't believe this gonna hurt this bad. 

after all this time, or too put in the truth way. you can't fool your heart. that never been love. 

wonder how many times it takes for me to stand strong like i use to.