Phew

Just another scrubby story of my life, got to attend annual meeting in my office,  there are two meeting yesterday and i wasn't mean to get those snack and lunch box (we got snack & lunch box for every meeting). I don't mean to sound like arrogant or proud here; but I don't really fancy those box. The moment I got the box, I give it all away to my students. That day when I reach home, I found my parents friends bought us lot of food; and it didn't stop there, at the night their friends from jakarta comes to visit and give lot of bread and clothes as well. and I was like. what a bless. that is Rezeki right? if it means to you Allah will lead it back to you. I already give away rezeki office yet another comes right away. MasyaAllah.

Hi blog. I know its been a while since my last post. The thing is, im in agony. I feel like I missing some kind of adventures. I just cant wait to travel again. I feel something missing tho im still not sure what is it. Still I have to admit,  got lot stuff to do. Almost have no time to me myself and adventure. Did I miss the old me?

I don't know what is in my head but for no reason I just want to check my facebook email and turn back to that time. And I found out I was wrong. From the start I already know that it wasn't right. I'm pretty sure someone try to hide the fact from me. and I start to think that somebody is me, myself since im the one who know the password. I just don't understand; i feel like i never read this email before but its already mark as read. But for some reason, feel like, I ever read this before. Wonder if I reply the message ? no trace left though. I know past is in the past but meh! whatever.

Job seeker eeeh?? this is the stage when you feel stress, depress, sensitive. You expect to get the job in your area, but most of them looking for the experience one. You expect to get the highest salary, but you just freshman with no experience. You expect people to care, but people to busy with their own business. Down the road, You start to feel people leave you behind. Trust me, I been there before. .... *three or two week ago,   when I knew my father got invitation from UNESCO, I thought maybe this is the chance, to mingle and looking for the network. .... *in the UNESCO field trip Right before my eyes, I saw Gwang-Jo kim, the director UNESCO, Bangkok. the most humble man i ever met, I supposed, so friendly the way he blend with people, when he saw me, he almost sake my hand, I was like, man,,, it was close.   but I have no guts to talk to him or even talk about the job. that is the moment I realize, I got nothing to offer. ...

. or in english Fullstop. It was a disaster, the biggest mistake I ever made. You know the things about mistake? most favorite serial all the time. "How I met your mother",  about mistake, even though it was a mistake, you gonna make it anyway so says Ted Mosby, the leading actor. You dont know it was a mistake until you make it. - Ted Mosby ... that night was the time when I think I have enough. I drift carefully though I almost hit the pedestrian.  was pinched dark plus the heavy rain. and I start thinking gotta make it home safely. I don't wanna  make one more trouble. as i arrived I play it cool.  my father ask me where have you been? you went out with your boyfriend? i was afraid if my father will angry for that. and i was like, no, i go out with fellas., boyfriend?? we are through. I can't contain myself and crying. my dad look at me and says, it's okay dear. he says a lot stuff to comfort me. Im so dead her...

Ever since I lecturing Public Opinion Subject, I been thinking that I should write some opinion in newspaper or public sphere as a role model for my student. The idea is already there but the thing is... I'm not confident enough to posting it. I don't wanna involve in some kind of deep debate with some strangers not to mention that I have to fully responsible for all things that I post. Is that ridiculous that I encourage my student to write when Me, Myself haven't start yet v;. what can I say, talk is cheap. literally cheap! Speaking of writing and talk, Lately i feel like my English sound so terrible!, I forgot how to spell some vocabulary. I even lost my confident to speak in English ;v because you know what? Indonesian people are hilariously grammar Nazi ;v. though they themselves broke the language. Ever heard how Indonesian people pronounce social media application called PATH?. They spell it pet instead of pa'th. *here you go miaw the grammar police ;v I ...

Hmm.. How do we start it.... hmm,, gimana ya, I writing this as a respond to this article named ten courses that might be going down a.k.a close. or to be precise the author use the work vanished. the top 10 courses that might get vanish. http://profesi-unm.com/2015/03/28/10-jurusan-di-universitas-yang-terancam-punah/ Tulisan ini merupakan respond gw terhadap tulisan di link berikut, penulis dari artikel ini mengatakan ada 10 jurusan yang dia duga terancam punah, alias di tutup. http://profesi-unm.com/2015/03/28/10-jurusan-di-universitas-yang-terancam-punah/ You know what, I well aware that the author already put it as his/her own opinion. So basically what I understand here, there is no real survey or research how this 10 courses will be close. Gw sadar penulis menekankan di tulisan tersebut bahwa hal itu adalah sekedar pendapat ataupun opini dari dia pribadi. Basically what the writer said, the top ten "vanish candidate" is 1)Music, 2)Politic and Government...